No Pain No Game!

So my mommy day started of dropping the kids to the train station so they can start their day of summer school and work. Now I am at physical therapy getting treatment on my shoulder. I am still feeling numbness on the right side and pain across the chest which I have to remember to tell the doctor. I feel like by the time I turn 50 my body is going to completely fall apart! Ok let me go focus on my exercises now!

OMG..Can I Do This?

So for those who do not know I was accepted into a scholarship program with Hunter College for a second Master's in Social Work. Sounds exciting but at the same time overwhelming...how am I going to do this with all the other things that I have to do with the kids? What and who am i going to use as my supports? I had orientation yesterday and swore I was having an anxiety attack as I sat there thinking about all this stuff. Anyway, I am going to take this one day at a time so as to see if I am able to work it out! The kids are doing good but will have to be updated about the events to come and the impact to them as well. Is there any suggestions out there for me?

Never Can Do Right!

So I have been trying to be in good accords with the ex and it seems like he will not allow us to go in that direction. Every time we start doing good, he finds something to make an issue about. Since the separation, I have stayed low key but it seems like I am the one causing him great grief in whatever I do. This week he was fine and then once he found out that I was having a BBQ with friends at the house, it became an instant issue. He can continue with his life with no problem but I must stop everything and be a homebody. Throughout our marriage, he never liked my friends and was always so nasty to them. Of course, it was all in my imagination and it was ALL my friends causing him harm. I remember no matter whoever of his friends that would come by, whether I cared for them or not, I was always cordial. I rarely invited friends to the house for this simple reason so I am enjoying being able to have functions where my friends are here with me. The 21st 21st will make two years since the separation and they say its gets better....I am still waiting!

Been So Long!

Wow...it has been a long time since I have entered anything on this blog. However, I am back to work and the craziness has begun. This was the main reason that I created this blog to not only capture the moments with my kids but to document the madness that i work to see how I maintain a balance within both. My administrative responsibilities have increased in regard to the day to day oversight of my program so this week was full of report submission and monitoring of program deliverables. I do not even see how the balance is made. I am still fighting with my bank for a loan modification which is beginning to become a nightmare. The kids had a great week...Kianna started her summer school program which she appears to not be thrilled about the work but more so being able to see her friends. Can someone please explain to me why you have to pay $200 for a mandatory summer session??? Anyway, Camryn seems to be enjoying camp and seeing her friends again. Kianna is also doing a summer intensive with dance school which appears to be true to its title! I hope she can endure. Right now, I am in bed and not wanting to get up at all to start the day. So sleepy but cannot go back to sleep...well let me try again! To be continued...

And Its All About Me!

This weekend was such a me moment and I loved it! Should I feel guilty that I spent an entire weekend doing the things that I wanted to do and did not involve the children??? Well, I did feel a little guilty but still carried forth and enjoyed the time. The kids spent the weekend with their dad and did not come back until today. In that time, I was able to relax on Friday evening, enjoy a wonderful BBQ at my job on Saturday while being able to visit other BBQs and finishing off Sunday with some much needed cleaning. I was really able to focus on me and do things that I have not been able to do in close to a year. Wow...did I just say a year? With all the running around with the kids and their activities combined with all the late nights at work and doing all my professional grown-up stuff, it has been a year since I really cleaned and focused on the house. Now don't get me wrong, my house was not dirty but getting to the point with clutter that I was ready to be one of those individuals that you see on 'Clean House"! I was able to tackle Camryn and Kianna's room before working my way down to the dining room where the clutter was literally living and multiplying. I am about 85% done and managed to throw away 5 bags of garbage which includes recyclables as well as putting together a trunk full of items that are being donated on Tuesday! Of course, the kids are home now but they are all in their respective rooms with the exception of Camryn that feels the need to watch Noggin in my room. In any case, I am making myself a plate of pasta and making sure that I am in my bed ready to watch an episode of "Army Wives" by 10pm. Did I mention I even have my work clothes ready for tomorrow...yep I sure was on a roll today. Hopefully, it can last the week and I will remain motivated to finish what I started! Good night and until later!

Personal Assistant Needed!!!

We are back from vacation and I am already overwhelmed. The house is a mess and I wish I couldhave some help getting it together. I have found that since the divorce I cannot get it together with keeping the house orderly. My level of OCD used to transcend throughout the house but now it is the complete opposite. I vowed to myself that tomorrow night I would restore complete order to at least the basement and 1st floor level. Please say a prayer for me!!!!

Wonder What's Up with the Ex???

Imagine that...I have been away with the kids since Saturday and they have diligently called their dad everyday but he has not bothered me with any nonsense. Usually, there is some little silly question or dilemna that needs my most immediate attention that only I can address, however, NOTHING! Trust me, I am not looking for him to call but it has been an up and down battle with him just to be friends. Usually, when he does not speak to me for a period of time, the ball drops and KABOOM the explosion begins. It has been such a peaceful week besides dealing with Michael dying (Yes, I am an avid fan!) to have to come back to any unnecessary drama. Hopefully, I will be proven wrong and he will be as nice as pudding which he is possible of doing from time to time.

Tranquility & Peace 4 an Hour!

Wow...I have to plan out this day well because its our last full day before leaving tomorrow. Right now, I am enjoying the peace and tranquility of the kids still sleeping. This should only last for an hour before they get up and get moving. I have not looked outside but maybe I will take them to play mini-golf. Ssshh...gotta go...I have a sighting of a 6 year old lurking outside my door!